Wednesday, October 5, 2016

Auras, visions, and hallucinations, oh my!





Ever since I was a little girl I have always been able to see beautiful colors emitting from peoples bodies and objects. I always thought it was normal. I lived in my life assuming that everyone could see these amazing colors of energy that came off of people and things. I also would have daily hallucinations which I also thought was nothing dangerous. When I was almost 30 years old I was talking to my husband about the auras and hallucinations, which apparently was the first time I had fully revealed my visions. Every time I had mentioned it, I guess, I had never fully explained myself. My husband and everyone else just assumed that I was talking about floaters in my vision or something like that.


Anyway, as I was explaining my daily hallucinations to my husband, he started to look very concerned. He said "that's not normal! People don't hallucinate unless they are on drugs!". My whole world was shaken. A huge part of who I have always been, what I thought was normal, was not? I could not believe that it was not "normal", since it always felt so natural and "normal". I began to question myself. Was I crazy? Did I have a brain tumor? Why would I have thought it was normal? After many hospital visits to reveal how healthy I am, I know that there is nothing wrong with me. Now, I know, I am normal.

I have always been drawn to altered realities because they mimic what I believe is the real world. Since my realization, that not everyone can see the world we live in as I do, I have been even more curious about the universe and our existence in it. Why do some humans see the energy fields that surround things while others do not? Could it be that all of us have this divine connection but do not know how to tap into it? Maybe. I would like to hope so.

My journey in the world has led me to exactly where I am, wondering how I can nurture this connection to the world, and how can I help others to see it too. As a mother, I am always teaching, always learning, and always growing with the lessons I teach my sons.  I have seen their imagination and understanding of the world mature over the years.  Each of my sons have their own ability in seeing and feeling energy fields. They are the generation that will not only understand but will fully accept the connection between the energy fields of reality and reality itself.  So I guess, this is where I start/continue my journey.  
I will develop my own integral awareness while teaching my children what I have learned along my path.  I will be patient and kind with my journey while I grow into a more aware human.  For as eager as I am to become the wise, old, and  fantastically amazing lavender hair goddess that I see in my visions, I must be stoical.  The wise one that I am distend to be is only enlighten because of the life she has endured. For now, I will continue to doodle and document my hallucinations and auras that I see.

Forward momentum!    

(Photo of my littlest "helping" draw an energy field)
To be continued.........

Thursday, May 19, 2016

Coconut oil = Acne cure!!!!

I simply use coconut oil to wash my face in the morning and at night. I use nothing else! No other acne crap! All you need is coconut oil and warm water and you are on your way to an acne-free face. 

I have been cleansing my face, everyday for two years. My acne and my acne scars are all healed up. I hardly recognize my face, it's beautiful and soft!!


Monday, August 24, 2015

DIY air freshener

Mouthwash + water = air freshener 


WHAT YOU NEED:
-Spray bottle 
-Mouthwash 
-Water

Mix 1 cup mouthwash with 2 cups of water in a spray bottle. 

Use air freshener in pet area, bathroom, kids room, kitchen, any stinky place!

This spray can also be used as a disinfectant to clean the bathroom. 

I'm sure you could find other stinky things to clean with it. Especially if you have kids and or pets. 

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Being human


No matter who you are, no matter how old you are, being a human is complicated.

It doesn't matter if you have had an easy life or a hard life, worries will always weigh on your mind. I believe that to be a successful human we must learn how to stay positive. I stay positive by replacing negative emotions and worries with positive emotions and hope. I do this through daily meditation. I'm not talking about sitting down in a peaceful environment and meditating. Rather, I meditate by refocusing my brain when it starts to get out-of-control, multiple times a day. Meditating can successfully happen at any moment in life's chaos. No matter where you are, you can always take a moment to "control" your thoughts. 

Here is how I calm my worries:
When I am feeling overwhelmed or anxious; I breathe, relax my body from my face down, and think of happy memories. In each of our lives there's a time where we have felt especially proud or had unconditional love for something or someone. Now, harness this feeling of loving kindness. Let the memory associated to the feeling go but hold on to the feeling. Take a deep breath and replace the negative emotions with this positive feeling. 

This loving kindness exercise will help you to constantly replace negative worries with positive memories, tricking your brain into being happy. After time, many of the trigger feelings of worry, anxiety, and fear will be replaced by healthy feelings.

Thoughts are things. So don't let your negative worries eat away at your body and your health.

 A healthy mind comes from healthy habits. When you let your mind run wild, you are not in control. So remember that even when your mind feels out of control, that you are in control and you should act like it every day. It is okay to feel the emotional and physical pain of life. It is not okay to let it consume you! Acknowledge the feeling(s), allow it space to be or replace it, relax, and repeat as necessary. 

Remember to stay positive and don't let your mind run wild. Control your actions as well as your mind's actions by practicing this meditation TODAY! 

We may feel all alone but we are not. We are all collectively confused, therefore we are never alone.

 


Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Galactocele



Today, I would like to share my story about my Galactoceles. I have two in my left breast. One is the size of a ping-pong ball located above my Ariola. One is the size of a golf ball located below my Ariola. I am currently nursing my three month old Zander. Zander is my third baby boy. I nursed all of them.

With my first baby boy I developed one 

Galactocele in my right breast. It was small and didn't hurt very bad. I was encouraged to stop nursing so it could be taken care of. After he was done nursing I had it surgically removed. With my second son I developed one on the bottom of my left breast. While nursing him, I noticed that the right breast didn't produce as much milk since the milk duct was surgically removed. 


This time my cyst hurt and was red off and on for over a year. Once again I was encouraged to quit nursing to lessen my pain. When he was done nursing I decided not to get it removed or drained but just keep it to see what would happen. It's slowly shrunk and then eventually went away in about 3 to 5 years after I stop nursing.


Now that I'm nursing for my third time I feel like an expert on the subject. Yeah they hurt and yeah they're annoying but I enjoy breast-feeding and am fully committed to it. 


Right before the birth of my third boy I noticed a lump above my Ariola. Then about two weeks after he was born the one on the bottom of my Ariola reappeared. 

I have found that with my three episodes of nursing and dealing with the cyst that invasive actions don't seem to help anything. 

Galactocele seem to be all about the game of time. Stress seems to feed them so don't worry about it. Eating healthy and staying positive has been the most successful in shrinking them in my personal experience. Drinking lots of water and nursing on the infected side is also beneficial. 


I have met many women who have had it drained with no success. It seems that once it's drained it feels right back up as soon as you let down again. In all three of my cases my babies have never cared about nursing on the infected side. I always thought that it bothered me way more than a bother them. So this time around I am trying to keep my stress levels down and my optimism levels up. 

UPDATE: we have been successfully nursing for a year!!
The doctors want me to quit so I can get surgery but I said "hell no!". 
I plan to continue nursing until Z weans himself. 


Saturday, July 18, 2015

Roasted veggies over rice and tomatoes

Toss green beans, onion, zucchini, and potatoes in oil, salt, pepper and garlic. Roast veggies single layer at 225' for 2 hours. 
Cook rice and set aside. While veggies roast, simmer 1-2 cans of stewed tomatoes over med heat with salt, pepper and garlic. Simmer for at least a half hour. 

To serve, layer rice on a plate topped with tomato sauce and roasted vegetables. Salt and pepper to taste.

ENJOY!!!


DIY Newborn Cosleeper

Safety warning: use common sense! Never cosleep while intoxacated. Never use with loose bedding.

Pool noodle + Pillowcase = DIY Cosleeper